malaria

26 march 2010

last night i woke up, reaching for my torch - heart racing - terrified 4 times.

once thinking that my body was covered in enormous, harry spiders.

once thinking that a stranger was knocking at my door, and/or in my house.

once thinking that my mosquito net was something else trapping me.

once thinking that my neighbors were working on plans to start another genocide.

these malaria meds have crossed the line. these aren't just nightmares, they're night terrors. I remember thinking to myself "I need to stop dreaming so I can get some sleep". Tired to the point of tears.