my idealism is being pushed out of my heart
by "realists" and negativity.
i don't know what's left in there
and i don't know where this is coming from.
a helplessness
a hopelessness
a guilt
a desperation
a realization of my own naiveté.
what is wrong with me?
i was one of those girls who wanted to 'save the world'
& now the idea just seems absurd.
the world. really?
& how were you going to do that, nicole?
with a big hug?
you think your love can heal the world?
i'm afraid i'm about to set sail on a sea of apathy.
what would it take to change the winds?
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I read an old profile of mine on a social networking site a bit ago and realized I had written "I will change the world." Then, I realized I've written that in a lot of places...and I don't know if I believe it anymore.
nicole. i feel this way a lot sometimes.
i think we all change the world in our own way if we put our minds to it. you know that saying about the flap of a butterflies wings making a hurricane? i think that's true about us as people.
so. you want to change the world. you may not be able to quantify that change immediately, but really what change was every fast or easy. you never know who you've talked to or what you've said to whom that's totally changed them, their lives, and in effect the whole world. 6 degrees of separation applies to our influence on others too. who knows. maybe you mention something to a teen in alaska who moves to DC the befriends the obama's daughter's who join forces with them and together and make radical changes; and what you said to her gave her the courage that helps change the world.
but it's not always that big. it doesn't have to be. the world is a big place and sometimes it's daunting. in a way you're right. one person filled with love and hugs might change the world. but. if your hugs makes one persons day better, isn't that an act of changing the world, albeit small?
it's hard and i understand. but apathy is not the answer. it's the easiest thing. but. i firmly believe that every good choice, every impact we try to make will have some greater affect.
don't give in to apathy. apathy can kill your soul. redirect it into something else.
i love you. and just so you know, you and my friend tina are the people i describe as "my two friends who are out changing the world and making it a better place"
Nicole:
A quote that has always meant a lot to me in times of great "nervousness".
I am done with great things and big things
Great institutions and big success
And I am for those tiny, invisible, molecular, moral forces
That work from individual to individual through the cranies of the world
Like so many rootlets
Or like the capillary oozing of water
Yet which, if you give them time
Will rend the hardest monuments of man's pride
Perhaps the best way to change the world is to simply be the you who cares for those around you, and who wants to beleive in those invisible molecular moral forces! Remember the good in life, forget the bad, keep loving with all your heart friend.
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