Monday, 28 November 2011

brian wrote this for me

Nicole’s New Essay

Global Village Thing

Did I mention I was in Peace Corps? I don’t know if you saw that on my resume but I think it immediately identifies myself as a candidate for this program. I served in Rwanda. Most people haven’t heard of this country, or may think it was the fictional locale of a 2007 movie starring Forrest Whitaker. I did not meet Forrest in my travel, but I did walk by the hotel mentioned and I swear I heard ghosts.

I have learned a lot about ghosts.

Sunday, 27 November 2011

dreams last night


breaking into houses
in my old neighborhood
to steal cookies

riding a unicycle down the side of a steep mountain,
through hiking traffic,
onto a wooden boardwalk,
on the ocean.
sea turtles, walruses, sea lions,
feeding them animal crackers
dangerous!
people swimming in these creature-filled waters
ocean becomes a swim meet
in a high school

photographing
something.

Thursday, 24 November 2011

learning as i go

loving someone
does not mean
infatuation
nor lust

it means
trust
respect
support
comfort.

the 'in love' phase
last no more than 2 years,
research shows.

but you can love someone
for a lifetime,
i believe.

& that is much more important
than the
f p
a r
l o
l c
i e
n s
g s

Monday, 21 November 2011

Today.

Today a youth told me about being curled up

in a ball in her big puffy jacket

on a bench at the transit center.


A man walked by, she said,

and gave her a funny look.

He went into the restroom

and when he walked by a second time,

he tossed something crinkled up at her.

Thinking it was just a wad of paper,

the youth was surprised to find

that it was actually a ten dollar bill.


She was laughing when she told me

this had never happened to her before.

She was confused by his action,

but glad

that she was able to get herself

a cup of coffee this morning.

Wednesday, 9 November 2011

notes of wisdom from a dear friend

listen

don't let your enthusiasm drown out over peoples' depression

meet them where they are

keep trying

don't push your insecurities onto others

in silence, some people might be perfectly comfortable even if you're not

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

stress

I am Stressed.

I am stressed
over application essays,
I feel no motivation to write them.
Grad School - becoming a counselor sounds great
but I have a partner, whom I love dearly
- and for the first time in my life I need to make plans with someone else.
& he's not one to think that that far into the future.
& that stresses me out.

I am stressed
about work.
If the Holiday Party sucks,
guess whose fault that is.
If not every little detail comes together nicely,
guess whose fault that is.

I am stressed
about my living situation.
I'll need to get out of my lease early
- I need to find someone to sublease.
I'm worried that when people realize we have a monster living in our basement,
they won't want to live here.
I'm worried that my roomie living in the basement is going to move up into my room,
& then I'll have to find a way to convince someone to move into his tiny room downstairs.

I'm stressed about the financial consequences this may put me in.

I am stressed
that I'm on a training plan
& that the gym closes in 1.5 hours,
& I still haven't made it there yet to get in my 11 miles for the day.

I am stressed
at work that I've had to cover for someone this week
(I am happy to help out)
but it comes with the price of not getting my own work done as I'd like to.

I am stressed
that I'm not getting as much alone time as I need
& I turn into a horrible bitch.
I'm sorry.

I'm stressed
over medical bills
& about not having health insurance in January.
(what is wrong with this country?)

I'm stressed
over things going on in the next 1.5 hours
over things going on in the next 4 days
over things going on in the next 3 months
over things going on in the next 2 years.

I'm stressed.

But I know that I'll get through it.
I just hope I don't push/scare too many people away in the process.

Monday, 7 November 2011

I love it when
someone enters my life
& teaches me something.
a new skill
a new perspective
disproves my own prejudices & judgements.

surprise me.
challenge me.
help me to grow.