stress

I am Stressed.

I am stressed

over application essays,

I feel no motivation to write them.

Grad School - becoming a counselor sounds great

but I have a partner, whom I love dearly

- and for the first time in my life I need to make plans with someone else.

& he's not one to think that that far into the future.

& that stresses me out.

I am stressed

about work.

If the Holiday Party sucks,

guess whose fault that is.

If not every little detail comes together nicely,

guess whose fault that is.

I am stressed

about my living situation.

I'll need to get out of my lease early

- I need to find someone to sublease.

I'm worried that when people realize we have a monster living in our basement,

they won't want to live here.

I'm worried that my roomie living in the basement is going to move up into my room,

& then I'll have to find a way to convince someone to move into his tiny room downstairs.

I'm stressed about the financial consequences this may put me in.

I am stressed

that I'm on a training plan

& that the gym closes in 1.5 hours,

& I still haven't made it there yet to get in my 11 miles for the day.

I am stressed

at work that I've had to cover for someone this week

(I am happy to help out)

but it comes with the price of not getting my own work done as I'd like to.

I am stressed

that I'm not getting as much alone time as I need

& I turn into a horrible bitch.

I'm sorry.

I'm stressed

over medical bills

& about not having health insurance in January.

(what is wrong with this country?)

I'm stressed

over things going on in the next 1.5 hours

over things going on in the next 4 days

over things going on in the next 3 months

over things going on in the next 2 years.

I'm stressed.

But I know that I'll get through it.

I just hope I don't push/scare too many people away in the process.